13th August 1819
My dear diary, good to spend time with you again!
Now I see, it is a blessing to sit in silence and
reflect on latest adventures. I sit in front of the window and I can see pretty
waves of mountains. My favourite type of English grandfather clocks is ticking.
It sounds like a music of eternity to me. Because time never stops, though it
may end for our generation one day.
Happiness, peace, and truth. The most important
values to me but… what it all really is? It is what I am feeling right in this
moment. It is also all those things that brought me here. Happiness is being
right here and feeling… the smell of life and nature, and world. Peace is
hearing my own heartbeat and feeling that this fact makes me smile. Truth is
following your heart and knowing you do things right. You can sleep peacefully when
your truth is finally spoken.
Happiness is not only just a simple smile and
getting what you want. It is getting what you need. It is a constant work. It
is a prize for your sweat. A real happiness does not last only one day.
I do believe in God but maybe that is a truth
too? Maybe dark and light spirits really exist, and we constantly deal with
them? Maybe that it is truth that every place has its powers? Maybe that is truth
and Christ is always among us? Who will ever understand God’s secrets? Who will
ever see unseen? Well, maybe… poets are really a bridge to God?
Yes, I really feel that something has changed in
me since I met those people yesterday. I feel now I really understand that war
that took place in front of my eyes. I saw signs earlier and maybe… It was
meant to be. It may sound like a nonsense, but I think it was not a coincidence
that those people found their way to our house yesterday.
Well… Bien, it is a good moment to wake up from
this spiritual daydream…
It is getting late and dark. William wants to
take me by a lake again. This time he told me to wear a mask I had during our
wedding week. I have no idea what it is about but all right, my love! I guess
you have planned it before we even arrived here. Because he brought me that
mask in the morning with a letter. Wow, William… Ten years and you still can
really surprise me!
I must go now. I will tell you how it was later.
*Few hours later*
Haha, William! You are crazy but I love you like
this the most!
I had so much fun! He brought giraffe piano by
the lake, candleholder in his hand, dressed elegant like a ball, and wore a black
mask on his face. The same wedding mask. He danced a little with me, always
carried candles, then he gave it to me and started playlist piano. It was not a
normal melody… He showed me another part of my new drama! At the end he read a
part of Romeo and Juliet and we took masks off our faces.
I think it was a little ritual. Something has
changed in both of us. I can feel it. I do not know how but it feels even
more passionate now… I feel that something fulgent and real is coming.
Like never before… I feel something new and exciting is coming.
New chapter of our lives is coming.
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